LIVESTREAM FRIDAY 6.17.22 9AM PDT
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A June 2022 Friday morning session. Van answers patron questions and talks through summer workshop plans with the community.
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all right it says uh i'm live i hope that's true um i see a bunch of people in the chat
so i guess it's working but the patreon site was down for a few minutes this morning
so maybe people will trickle in and in keeping with tradition i guess i'll do
my david lynch rip off and do a weather report it was foggy and raining a little bit this morning between four and
eight and now it's just overcast and i don't know it's kind of a perfect day actually
okay so uh hope everyone's doing fine um i have questions here from you guys that you wrote into the comments to the announcement
which was yesterday um oh also there was one question that i didn't get to last week
that was a very good question and i i didn't write down who asked it so i apologize for leaving out
but the question was which of the 10 bullets do i think is the most important and so 10 bullets was a do i have a copy
of it here let me see ten bullets was a zine and movie
and the zine was written by tom sacks and john ferguson and i directed the movie and it's basically the uh
10 commandments of working in tom sachs's studio but it's also very good 10 commandments for working
and so the 10 bullets are work to code sacred space be on time
be thorough i understand six is get confirmation sent does not
mean received seven is keep a list eight is always be knowling
nine is sacrificed to leather face and ten is persistence and the one i think is the most
important is number four be thorough because if you're thorough then all
you follow all ten bullets and um yeah thoroughness counts it drives me crazy to um pay top dollar and have oh okay so i didn't pay top dollar but i had my
truck fixed i had a pretty big job just doing the front end on the land cruiser replaced uh wheel bearings the knuckle
seals um the tie rod ends brake rotors this is like last few days
and when i got the truck back because they replaced the brake loaders they have to break rotors they have to bleed the
brake lines and they hadn't refilled the master cylinder so the brake warning
light was on when i got in the car and when i started the car it wouldn't
start even though my battery was two weeks old because the mechanic had not turned the key all the way to the off position
they'd turn it they turned it to right before the off position and the key will come out at that point
but i guess the radio was on and it just drained the brand new battery which took like two days on the
charger to charge um they weren't thorough but they're a great job so i'll let him slide um okay so from tyler
tyler writes how does one begin to become handy what do you fix and what do you make and
i answered this in the messages on the patreon someone else
asked in the like private messages and i think the thing is before you throw first of all
give up on devices forget devices ipads imacs all that stuff forget it you're never fixing any of that stuff throw it away and get a new one
um but with like mechanical stuff the older it is basically the more straightforward and easier it is to fix to a certain
degree and before you throw something away just take it apart and look at it something breaks and you're about to throw it away
take it apart and look at it and see if you can diagnose what's wrong with it you don't even have to try to fix it just see if you can look in there
and see ah then that looks off or so forth and that's sort of the beginning i mean i've started at such a young age
that now it's a very strong intuitive force and it's also almost a bad habit because certain sometimes i'll spend time like
tweaking and fixing something when it's like whoa whoa just throw that you're spending thousands of dollars in man hours with you know wasting your time on this
thing just to get another one um [Music] and it says what do you fix i guess i just answered that oh and
you have to have tools i've done some tool episodes on the youtube channel but you absolutely positively cannot buy
cheap tools you're ruining your life because tools are to fix broken things okay you
buy a cheap tool you've got a broken thing that you're trying to use to fix a broken thing and tools are
quite inexpensive especially like the cost of your iphone that you replace every two years or year or whatever
that's like 10 top notch quality tools including power tools like a great
power drill is a hundred bucks that comes with two batteries you know nice german
little screwdrivers buy them one at a time do not buy a gigantic tool set 500 000 piece tool set 17 no
like you know when i go to japan i go into the hardware stores and just find tiny little beautiful
i'm trying to look for something there's a particular screwdriver i have in my mind like precision screwdrivers
there's three kinds of phillips screwdriver screw there's three major phillips screw bits you should know that there's the
one the two and the three and the one is like little electronics they go smaller and bigger but the one is a little electronics and the three is like
snowboard bindings like big screws but yeah take things apart learn how to take things apart
um and if you want to really dive in buy some old vehicle and just fall in love with
it and go through like the pain of i'm keeping this thing on the road no matter what and you'll
just learn everything because everything's gonna break um oh so ethan
a lot of people suggest this are like hey you could really pick up your um monetization game if you sold more stuff
and i do realize that but i'm also at this like level where i'm not big enough to
i don't have like enough subscribers and views and so forth to have someone assist me nor can i really afford
someone to assist me with that like to make the actual prototype or to to yeah to even do the idea and then
have a team kind of iterate prototypes for like i guess posters and
scenes and you know we sell shirts and stuff on the on the merch page
but i have i think that'll eventually happen also i you know i don't want to sell just throw away
stuff i want to sell kind of precious um artifacts so
yeah i realized that but it's like i'm not going to eat into my video my precious video making time i
can't make anything in less than a day whether it's a physical item or whatever i can't make anything worth
worthwhile for in less than a day and that's in that's you know 20 of my um
youtube video making time as one day and then he asked if i'd know about jimmy deresta
and i i didn't know the name but then i wikipediaed it and he has this show called making fun that i've watched with
excellent idea for a show like little kids come up with crazy ideas like a giant sneaker car that shoots
um basketballs or something like this and he and his team like in a week or whatever like just fashion this thing
together in the and it you know he insists that it works once and it's fin it's just fantastic and he has
a really cool space uh it's on netflix that show making fun
um oh this is a great question this is a good one so grady asks how did i get past gear acquisition
syndrome so a lot of people um [Music] i don't know how to say this a lot of people are more technicians than they are like creators
and they don't know it but the the the technical equipment that they fall in
love with sort of tricks them into thinking that they are a artist or they're a director or they're a
what have you whereas maybe you're just a technician maybe that's what your your calling is and it's handier to be a technician it's
much easier to to get work there's it seems like there's fewer
competent technicians than there are fewer than there are like professional creative people although that's kind of weird
um because there's so many professional creative people and so for me i don't really
know that that was ever an issue i've always just kind of acquired whatever the minimum
equipment to achieve you know the technical standard that i've had and
you know um my brother casey on the other hand he's in love with it all he just loves the gadgetry of it
and he's nothing's gonna stop him from making his his well besides extreme wealth
almost nothing will stop him from making um his videos and his stuff so
he you know would make videos about or tangentially about equipment or feature equipment in his in his videos
but i had another i had another point that i was going to make equipment
standard oh i was watching this great basketball movie called hustle
with adam sandler and there's a sequence in it where adam the sandler's
character's daughter is shooting um like uh with a canon
dslr she's shooting video for like a clinic for for sandler so that his like player
he plays like a basketball coach so his player can watch himself on video and see like his technique
for himself and when they cut to her footage that i'm pretty sure was shot on a dslr and
the camera she showed in there it doesn't even on my big like whatever 60 inch or however big it is flat screen tv
it doesn't look that much different than the like whatever red dragon or uh
what's what's the other one the the uh alexa the um
[Music] the ahri alexa whatever that like incredible million dollar setup they used to shoot the actual movie
when they cut to the kids 1500 camera footage doesn't look that different and i gotta say
better is i don't know i don't know which one is is is is better
it used to make an enormous difference like if there was video or film and then it would cut to
i'm sorry if there was if you were watching a film like there's a movie called american beauty that came out in early late late
90s or early 2000s and one of the characters is like a video artist with a little sony pd100
or a pc one maybe um and when they cut to his footage it is like night and day or when you see me cut
from high def footage or um it's not called high def what's it called 4k footage to
like old video camera footage or old um point-and-shoot uh footage it is
night and day but now with the 4k stuff it's you know um
i thought it was 3.6 million crystals of information in a 35 millimeter frame like that's the
resolution because that's how big the on the film emulsion that's how big the crystals are that there's 3.6 million so
4ks is that 4 million i can't remember but i'm thinking that 4k is actually higher resolution than 35
millimeter academy film and that's why when you watch a lot of these old films that have been transferred no i'm sorry that's when you watch a lot of
you watch a lot of new movies you can see the makeup it really really stands out and then it also has this effect with
the new equipment that it looks too real like you're just looking at a movie set and you're just looking at actors and
it's just too real but that might also be our perception because we've watched so much real stuff on youtube
um and in social media but yeah equipment i you know how do you
stop it it's just get the minimum and easiest stuff and i don't like it at all i don't like
learning new equipment i don't like changing my system and my organization and i don't like having to keep track of extra cards
and having a new system for backing up extra cards i kind of dread it um but
you know it's a lot of it is just get yourself in debt and make yourself be dependent on getting your work
to pay you and you know then you can then you're just going to be
focused on on getting your your work done um so i guess how did i ignore that and
start getting i just it was the other way around it was like i really wanted to transfer all the vhs tapes
i wanted to edit them all and what was the cheapest pathway to getting that done and it was a sony trv9 video camera
plugged into a vcr play the vhs tapes digitize them onto minidv tape and then import digitally
into an imac dv the vhs footage and then it's digital and you can edit it
and just kind of incrementally went from there oh and once you reach a certain level
probably a level i've never achieved but on occasion i've i've had access to professionals you're just going to be with
technicians who are way better than you probably who know how to use the alexa and know how to use the red dragon and
know all the prime lenses and maybe you are that person and on the on a film shoot like on a real
professional film shoot generally speaking the crew like the smartest person the one that it's all
resting on the one who's just so dialed in is generally speaking the cinematographer the cinematographer is
generally speaking the strongest link okay oh this is another great one vladimir asks what are my thoughts about fear
um so my thoughts about everyone has fear everyone has fear of
things brave people um generally speaking are able to do scary things in the face of fear but they still feel it now i know that they have done
experiments and bred rats like brave rats so there is a genetic
component to bravery and fear but i don't know to what extent and
there's some famous quotation from some famous behavioral
psychologist and they asked this person what's more important nature or nurture
and his response was well what's the most important dimension on a soccer field the length
or the width and the idea was that they're interdependent and you can't isolate
i mean to some extent so fear is you know you learn to distinguish what is wisdom fear and what is like cowardice fear
so like how good of a snowboarder are you before you go over that
60-foot mandatory gap table top jump like are you good enough to do it
but you're afraid to do it or are you afraid to do it because you're not good enough to do it and you're going to break ribs
femur you know you might get killed doing it so there's that with the physical fear
but fear of like failure your f if you have that and you let it stop you then you are doomed there you're doomed quit
just do the easy thing because you're doomed because the failure is is i heard uh mike uh not michael saylor
some other bitcoin guys say that uh pain is information failure is just you're just learning you're just like when you have an a
difficult project in front of you and you you sort of get used to the process you know like when you take step by the time
you're done with steak step one and you've failed you know oh i know how hard this is gonna be
and so yeah there's all the different kinds of fear but you have to really develop your bravery
um i think with children you have to be very careful not to put your fear on them and never say things like
you're gonna fall get down from there you're gonna fall do not ever say that to children um
but yeah i really think it's just you know it's in that movie four kings at the end
or maybe it's in the middle george clooney says you do the thing that you're scared shitless to do and the bravery comes
afterward not the other way around it's also kind of an act of faith like working with working in fear
and another thing because i'm old and you know old people are generally uh unforgiving like i don't
really accept this like anxiety disorder stuff like
people like okay if you have anxiety first of all keep it to yourself all right second we all have anxiety
and third it doesn't matter it doesn't mean you don't have to do the thing that you have
anxiety about it doesn't mean that you get special help because you have anxiety about it it just i mean i don't
know i mean i don't know enough about it i don't know enough about the extent maybe your soul if you have it as trying
to tell you something maybe your subconscious is trying to tell you something but i don't know i don't really know we
weren't i just feel like gen x man we weren't really we weren't allowed to be it just wasn't an excuse it was
something that was really shamed um not doing something because of fear um
tv shows or movies that i'm into at the moment uh well i just said that one hustle by that i can't remember who the director
was but it's an adam sandler basketball movie i really like that um i'm not having good luck with the stuff
with the streaming with the series and the i can't really get into series if they're not finite if they're not like limited series they just go on and on
and on i think people just first of all i can't follow the plot i can't follow all the story
and the creators tend to just um keep leveraging the little tricks that
were successful and the reason they were successful is because they were original and they were surprises and the writing gets weak and then i
think everybody once you get renewed a lot of the people who work on the on the projects on these series they
just get rich and they get lazy and they don't they don't work as hard i mean it's the same thing with everything but
um let me think i just gotta cry i just subscribed to the criterion collection or the criterion channel which is like a
streamer um and i watched rat catcher by lynn ramsey it's such a great masterpiece it's her
first film 1999 uh i don't know of course i'll think of
five things after this is over but that's what i'm thinking so far um
this one's a difficult question devin oh so bara asked me who the movies that i like devin uh asked me
who inspires me who ma who might not inspire others and i wonder if that's like who's like
sort of a bad person or like a or is it someone that's unknown or it's someone that oh i think i think
what it means is do i get do i have unusual sources of inspiration
let me think i don't know it's little things it's like little little things yeah i don't know i don't know and i think probably if they inspire me they probably inspire other people right so i don't know but that's a that's a good
question and then skip underscore andy or andy asked me how many mics do i rip on the
daily which is probably some quotation from like a beastie boys or a hip-hop song or something and i don't know what that means but i
have this mic i have the shure smb70 or i can't remember what it's
called i have this audio technica thing that i almost never use that but i used to be my only like studio mic
um and then i have a little tazz cam like 200 recorder that you put in your pocket
it's got a little wire and then i have the a zoom wireless a zoom mic that you can
control it's a lavalier with a little box that you can control with your phone that i've never used i bought for a
project but i ended up not using it and then there's these road mics that i've heard about that are
i think they're transmitters recorders and microphones all in the same little box and they clip to your shirt
i might get those i might get that because it automatically your iphone auto camera video camera automatically
syncs with it and it like transmits to the iphone so the iphone becomes a receiver so you don't have to sync afterwards i
believe that's the kind of like back to the gear question that's the kind of um like innovation that's going to save so
much time that it's almost undeniable because just that keeping track of the you know just
syncing it and keeping track of the data and making sure it goes together and copying it from the card to the machine but if it's just written on there that's
the kind of innovation that's worth um adopting and plus i think everything's now geared now so effing
cheap those are probably 100 bucks or 200 bucks or something um
okay oh and this i also like this question from david what is my relationship with my inner
voice like all right so this is how i understand it so you have two voices
okay you have what's probably your subconscious voice which is very very quiet and then you have your ego
which is the loud voice and the subconscious voice
it's hard to explain how quiet this voice is but the subconscious
voice is the one that goes there goes back up the work file before you go pick the kid up and that's all it says and it says it once and that's it and then the ego
is like you got these solid state hard drives because you've never lost a a work file
ever the the final cut pro backs it up automatically you only have 10 minutes to get to the school you don't need to
back it up it's ridiculous you've been backing it up all these every single friday you back or every single day you're working on these things you've been backing them up backing them up
you've never had a failure just go just go you don't have time for this and
depending on my like um serenity i will have the skill and the wherewithal and the conditioning to listen to the
very quiet voice the subconscious voice and disregard the ego voice and the way i achieve that serenity is like all the
aaa stuff and especially meditation um 20 minutes of meditation in the
morning and exercise um [Music] and that's you know that's you know the ego is there i mean we didn't evolve into having an ego for no reason
whatsoever it is helpful especially in the western world because if you're just like no i'm just going to be at one with nature and watch this butterfly for a
while you're going to get eaten alive probably literally in the olden days and then figuratively now
because man this western world you got to get out there and fight to stay alive
and then is my candor with myself different than with others of course i'm much harder on myself than i would be on others
and i especially drive myself crazy when i make very
foolish errors within an easy task that cost me dearly
but again if my serenity is sort of in check then that happens less and less often um
okay so now i'm going to go into the comments questions
oh yeah prepare repair you can repair your devices someone in here said there's plenty of uh oh joey said there's plenty of good
repair shops for devices throwing them away isn't the answer i actually my son threw our brand new
um like pro ipad into the bathtub and i use it to make music
and um you know it was all apple voided warranty stuff so i brought it to like a shop in town i have to actually call them
today um charlie munn said as of late before i venture back to new york city to continue my purpose of being an artist i feel surrounded and self-doubt how does
one move through this now just work that's my answer to everything just work just keep yourself very busy
and get yourself in over your head and fight your way out of it um
what are your thoughts on adam savage's rule of buying cheap tools the ones that break the most you then buy an expensive
version of them what what are your thoughts on adam savage's
rule of buying cheap tools and the ones that break the most you then buy an expensive version of them
no there's an expression cry once just buy the expensive one and eat it
what if it breaks what if it breaks and it's like the 75 000 day if you can screw
and it all comes down to that thing being able to screw in and it's all stripped and busted because you bought the cheap one that way
um although his scale might be a lot different than ours he might be talking about the cheap one being the 75 dollar
screwdriver versus the thousand dollar like german precision screwdriver you know he might be on a
completely different scale i'm talking about like you know i'm talking about like 100 tool piece
tool set for 29.99 i'm talking about that stuff it's not even made out of like it's made out of like particle steel
um this is a good question josh ward what zine have you not done yet that you really owe it to yourself to do so
[Music] i think i gotta do a zine called god i have a list of them make a look yeah there's a few on here um
i'd like to do one i think like youtube versus cinema from the
like the maker's point of view i think that would be because i think you know we're in this like overlap
era where you know if you're young and you're going into this
moving image industry you kind of had a fork in the road and
the real temptation in the draw is is cinema because the reason you want probably unless you're really young the reason
you want to do this stuff is because you saw the spielberg movies or whatever the harry potter movies or something and
like that feeling that like incredible immersion into those worlds you
really want to be someone who has the power to do that but people like jimmy donaldson you know mr beast who's
one of the most successful youtubers in the world he
doesn't watch movies doesn't know movies he grew up he's like 23. he's just always been obsessed with youtube
right and the youtube pat professional path is com
completely different than the cinema professional path mainly because
generally speaking youtube stuff is made by one person or two people and when you watch
a movie the credits there's sometimes a thousand people and it's uh there's just there's almost no
comparison except that you watch them on the same box um
but there is a very high degree of excellence with cinema
that and those who spend the money right who have the resources and do it right it's
it's unparalleled with in culture it's the most incredible thing i last week i just i listened to
uh the godfather one and godfather two just it was on youtube but i just put in my headphones and listened to um
francis ford coppola talking about making those and it was the director's commentary for godfather one and godfather two
and there's so much going on there's the the technical
side there's the dealing with the professionals and the actors side there's the um
there's like the budgetary side there's the and then there's you know he's just every the first he's
just on for godfather one he's just on the verge of being fired like almost every day like he's like day by day he's keeping
his job because that nobody wanted him to to make the damn movie and
youtube's kind of the opposite that like the only person you're gonna who's gonna fire you is you and you have a and he
coppola is i don't know what how he is able to maintain his standard or i don't know what is
connecting him to what the audience is going to like i don't know how he does that but how he
did it but it was basically just hunch i'm going to make this because it was a revolutionary movie at the time
i'm going to make this movie and people are and it's six million dollars or
something like this is that right it was very when you hear the budget you're like oh my god it was so cheap
because he has like the independent filmmaker brain and and brando kind of got ripped off on it
and the stars in it weren't giant stars yet it made them stars how is he
how does he have any idea whether or not this is going to be a hit how is he convincing these people to give him these executives to give him millions of
dollars because they want their investment back they want to make money on this thing with what what is he he's just no this
is like a really good movie about the italian americans it's gonna make you're gonna get your money like
whereas with youtube it's like you know you could put that movie on youtube and
it gets 50 000 views uh you know if you were to release it now
but you have this direct data that tells you whether you're good or not it tells you whether you're connecting or not
and i think the youtube is better because it's connection keeps you in the game versus
approval keeping you in the game so like if you're an actor and you want to be like a hollywood actor
right um you're just being dependent on someone choosing you you ding um
[Music] but with you know youtube people are going to choose you you based on how well they connect with you
and there's a huge difference between those two things and it's also the volume like one person three people in
hollywood or in that business are going to choose you and change your life whereas with the youtube thing plus you get so
many tries with the youtube thing you can just keep going for years and years and years nothing nothing nothing and then ding
whereas with the you know auditioning stuff you're just going to be
trying to get a chance to try over and over and over again you're going to get your chances like that's it
um but yeah i'd like to do a zine about youtube versus cinema because you know some of my friends a
lot of them were very successful in cinema and i you know that was my original ambition
but it just that wasn't it wasn't in the cards for me and these people they they majored in film too they went to film schools and
the ones who did made it the ones who got to make feature films with real movie stars and
and um they put in the work of writing that those however many screenplays that were terrible and then the one that was good
and then getting the talent to be interested in it um and i never did and i don't think i ever
will and so i think about it a lot but i also think this era is going to be remembered for the stuff that happened
on youtube and that's what's relevant and um cinema was the last era it was you know
the from you know maybe 100 years from its invention until you know a couple decades ago
and now it's pretty it's spectacular it's lots of spectacle but i don't know that it has the real
connection and it and it doesn't have broad connection i don't think anymore
okay what's the next one what motorcycle would you recommend for a first-time rider living in the city i like the idea of adventure bikes but i
love cafe racers depends on the city cities kind of broad like new york city is completely
different than well los angeles but i would recommend a yamaha tw 200.
almost any year just make sure that the engine has power when you ride it make sure it can go 65 you can get a brand new one and then i
think they started making them in 88 and it's basically the same bike but now they have hydraulic disc brakes and they might have fuel
injection now and it's probably worth it to get a fuel injected bike and the reason i recommend that is
because it has gigantic tires that are pretty much idiot proof you can mow over anything and you'll be fine it's not too heavy the seat's low
um it uh it'll do 65 almost under any circumstances i mean it'll take a while to get there and that engine is at full
tilt when you're going 65 but i've done like the angelus crest on a tw 200 like super steep gigantic
mountains um you know freeways on the around los angeles i also i first had one in in
manhattan and it was like a fantastic inter-borough bike because the streets in america
are horrible they're really bad especially in the cities i drove from the bronx down to oaxaca and the worst
streets on the entire trip were the streets in the bronx where the truck was where the truck was par you know where i
had that garage where i parked the truck and those that tw 200 little like kind of just it's a trail bike it just eats all the
bumps up and um yeah and it's low and you can like you can ride double on it if you really need
to um cafe racers are kind of hard to ride because you're lying down on them the they have clip on i think what defines a
cafe eraser is that it has clip on handlebars that clip on to the um they clip between like the two
uh triple clamps on the top of the fork so you're kind of lying on the on the um gas tank and they were
sort of developed for the for uh the riviera the and the riviera is kind of like los
angeles in that you're going from altitude right down to the mediterranean and so there were designed for you know
riding up into those mountains and then down into the little towns and basically going from like little cafe to cafe that's why they call them
cafe racers they're sort of like track bikes but they're not really city bikes they're not city bikes
you know you want to split lanes and get around side view mirrors and park and you know you kind of have to be upright to see what's going on
you're not like in a tuck so that's what i like um but yeah i get the job of a calf and
beautiful cafe eraser have you ever had to cut something you
loved out of your life that was a distraction from progressing in your life yes
drugs and alcohol that's for sure um let's see what else i mean i just feel
like it's unending sacrifice it's just just to make a living at this thing
just to be able to like make a living at making things from scratch it's a real sacrifice
like i think the last time i went snowboarding was in 2018
like the beginning the winter on the beginning side of 2018
what's that four years ago and man i think that snowboarding is
probably my favorite thing to do more than anything it's probably the most like to me it's sacred it's so beautiful
especially when you get really lucky and maybe you're in you know some incredible place like
jackson hole wyoming or aspen colorado and you get one of those storms in the middle of the week where the people from
that can't get into the place where you are and you just sort of have the whole mountain yourself i remember once it was
in jackson hole i was on the first gondola of the day and i was also the first gondola to get put put people on
and bring to the top of the mountain i was in that gondola and then i was in the last gondola the last after this one
boom no more um same day that'll never happen again but
you know the last time i went i was 43 years old and
or 42 years old and like my back was in severe pain afterwards from leaning over and
and doing up the the the bindings and just i was in really bad shape and at the same time i'm like
better than like tech like just a better rider than i've ever been and just that is a sport you have to be
either young without any responsibilities or it's just so so so
expensive i mean it's 200 a day for one lift ticket then
you know a weekend will be five grand if you're going to go up there with your family just after everything the hotels in those places are really expensive and
like i'm not interested in doing really anything on the cheap anymore unless in intrinsically the activity is on the
tree on the cheap activity like hiking like is a cheap activity but i'm not interested in doing expensive activities
like snowboarding on the cheap like i really i'm just i don't know i'm too old but that's something that i've
i've sacrificed and also sometimes depending on how broke i get like my motorcycles
it's just it's a privilege for me and when i go broke it's the first thing that gets cut out of my life is the motorcycles and i remember that
when i had that studio in the bronx my bmw just deteriorated i kept it inside but it was
just so much stuff was broken with it i had done the baja stuff with it and i'd kind of and moved out and i lived in la with it and it was just i was kind of
neglected and all this stuff like the sub frame was broken all this stuff and then as as i could afford it i'd fix little
things here and there and there and there and and um so there's there's two activities um
a lot of social stuff a lot of parties going missing a lot of family stuff that i should not miss um
you know weddings bar mitzvahs funerals like real painful [ __ ] that makes you look like a
[ __ ] [ __ ] if you don't go and just either by virtue of the opportunity that i had i just could not
say no to or i'm just again just broke can't afford the ticket can't afford to fly
um uh what else i mean what else is there i don't know yeah a lot there's a lot of little sacrifices but you know if it's your career you it's it's what's going to get you resources to do anything so
might as well just like i was having a conversation with isabel a couple days ago and it's just like
if i never get to fly anywhere again um i don't care but if
i fly somewhere again i want to fly business class or nothing else and of course emergencies
funerals that kind of stuff is you know i gotta fly whatever i can afford and that jump
from coach to business is tenfold i was looking to fly to
to see my father on the east coast and the tickets are 300 bucks for you know one
way for coach and 3 000 for um for for uh mint for for for uh jetblue mint and i know in the comments you can find 27.99 you can find
delta that's really my [ __ ] brother dean said 2500 dude okay fine eightfold different
um and um i'm just trying to get there having said that overland travel i'll drive to
tierra del fuego and i'll go through all that misery and blah blah blah but i'm gonna dot the trip with nice
awesome hotels but they're you know they're cheaper in south america um overland i'll go anywhere because i
love the car and i hate the airport airplane process the planes are fine um
you know so that's a self-imposed sacrifice because it's like no you're not successful
enough to do you to fly to europe you're not successful enough to whatever and all of the
asian trips i've ever taken they've all been for work so i've only flown to asia business class it's fantastic and i just like asia is
not worth the coach class trip to get there i'll just stay here and keep working until i can afford
the business class trip and now i got a family so it's like triple times three so it's like triple times ten so it's like thirty
fold more expensive but you know what can you do um
charlie munn asks can you speak on love and partnership with another person and its relation to
your work it's very easy to be unfair and it's very easy to ask or to demand of the other person that they too
sacrifice in the manner that you have sacrificed and it's also within your mind within my
mind i you know i have this mindset of like no matter what happens i have to [ __ ] work no matter what happens you know and it's you know
this the i don't know what decisions people i've been involved with i don't know what decisions they're going to make
but i'm going to have to work no matter what if she leaves me or whatever i'm not talking about isabelle i'm just talking about all of them if she leaves me
i still have to work and there's a line there somewhere where you
you can't it's you have to sort of protect them from your potential to
just work the whole relationship away and not have any relationship at all and i'm like i'm in there like right now but i'm starting to come out of it
i'm starting to like with the because if you guys are the patrons and other things it's starting to
relieve me and i'll find some time but yeah it's incredibly difficult
this is why i discourage people from doing this as like a profession like don't do it just get a job at microsoft or whatever just don't it's too hard
it's like you if you if you can do something else do something else because this is it's um
it's it's so uncertain um oh i just was reading something good and then i moved it so what is your view on dogs i love dogs as much as everyone but nobody cares about your dog
i find it really annoying that people when people even famous people like do posts like just sitting with like with
scratchy here and another thought you guys might want to we don't give a [ __ ] also oh my god i'll alienate people like
i go too much with this there's a dog on my run and there's a leash law in the park where i run
there's tons of dogs on my run all the time none of them bother me none of them um but there's this one badly behaved
it's like a it looks like it's maybe a samoyed and golden retriever mix it's like a big white
long-haired dog and it's almost too big for the owner to handle like she can barely restrain this thing
and it um tries to bite me and it's extremely aggressive around me
and when i see this woman's car in the parking lot it like i get like one of those adrenaline dumps and it wears me
out it's like halfway through my run and um [Music] and so i i think it was last week i was running she used to keep it off of a leash and
then like chase it and grab it by the collar and then it's been on a leash for a while and then last week um i was running i ran by her
and she had on the leash like restraining it with all of her might and it was
trying to get me and um then i ran up the hill and i came back and there was the dog
not on a leash owner nowhere and so the dog starts running
no i start running towards the dog and the dog starts like barking and running towards me and i just did the like
and i was just like flinching and like chasing it down and it would just turn and run away a little bit and then it would turn and face me and then i'd do it again and it turn and it faced me and
i knew i couldn't just run because then it would be it's like prey instinct would take over and it would just run after me
and also i'm not putting my back to this dog either so i had to just like i somehow
i was able to like get it to turn so that i was going back towards where i thought the owner was
and i had my headphones in the whole time i'm not listening to anyone i can't hear anyone i have my um whatever these raycon things in i'm listening to a
podcast and the owner comes out and she's trying to get it but it's a dog
it's hard to she's trying to catch it and then i didn't say anything i didn't say anything and then when she finally
kept caught it i said if that i've had multiple interactions with this woman i said if that dog bites me i'm going to
kill it and i mean it and i will kill that dog but uh you know dogs i think they're
specific for specific needs i think they're great for security i think they're great if you have a big piece of land or big piece of property i
don't really understand having a dog in a place like new york city like
what what dog wants that life um and uh but you know i've known some dogs
that i've loved my whole life i've never owned one but um yeah that's my thing
i don't have like the romantic although the screenplay i wrote was about a dog so um
i gotta go i gotta cut this off at 10 um [Music] but i finished my video this week's video it should be up later today and i think i'm going to switch soon to
publishing them on mondays because i'll have i'll have more time to focus on the patreon and monday my
videos in my perform better if they're released earlier in the week or i think just youtube in general if you release a
video earlier in the week it just does better in the viewer metrics and so forth so
uh all right everybody have a great weekend and um see you real soon goodbye
Products & Tools Mentioned
- Yamaha TW 200 recommends — motorcycle model discussed
- Honda Rebel 500 mentions — motorcycle discussed
- BMW motorcycle uses — Van's motorcycle
- Shure SM7B uses — microphone used
- Tascam 200 mentions — audio recorder
- Zoom wireless mic mentions — wireless microphone
- Rode mics mentions — microphone brand
- Raycon mentions — earbuds brand mentioned
- Criterion Channel recommends — streaming service
People Referenced
Lynne Ramsay, Adam Sandler, Peter Weir
Films & Media Referenced
- Lynne Ramsay film recommended
- Adam Sandler film
- classic films discussed
- Peter Weir film